ooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo I've been doing more thinking about David's post. I work hard at building my persona. (did I spell that right?) Not only do I think it is the right thing to do, it's almost necessary. Somewhere back in my past (pre-school maybe?), I became what Michael Crichton calls a "beta-male". I'm not a leader. When I'm around the NC gang, I feel kinda inadequate sometimes. The problem is with me, not them. They do a great job of making me feel welcome. But I wish I had the "ALS pizzaz". I wish I had Doug Lee's good looks. I wish I had my glans pressed against Kat's cervix. But I don't. In person I'm "dull as dishwater". So this forum is an excellent mechanism for me to tell people what's going on inside my mind. And, in my own way say, "hey I'm fucking special." Then, in the club when people see my pajamas they say, "Hey Saxbeat, I loved your post about Buddah. Man that was deep." . . -Bob "dull as dishwater" Smyth . .